Sorry it has been so long since my last post, but aside from the fact that it has been midterms week at school, which for me is more projects than tests, I have been having a bad case of writers block. Everything I have written, and yes there have been several drafts, all sounds like utter crap. So I have been spending most of my time browsing the web, looking at other posts and pictures, hoping that I would get some inspiration. Nothing. So instead I just opened a new post and started writing.
The funny thing is for the first time I decided to write a post on my phone and it actually seems to be helping, perhaps changing how I write my posts is a way for me to get inspiration. It almost feels like I am writing a long text, which is actually quite entertaining at the moment. Perhaps it is because I am in a small room with a tiny sleeping baby and only have my phone as entertainment.
A few weeks ago my wife started babysitting a two month old baby. She is the cutest most easiest baby in the world. She is always giggling and smiling, and only cries when she is absolutely unhappy, which is very rare.
I will say this though, watching her has only worsened my wife and I as far as baby blues go. We want one of our own so bad.
Back in December, we cut off all contraceptives, leaving it up to God as to when we would concieve. Other than that though we haven’t really been trying, until a few weeks ago.
Lately we have been doing a lot of research (well my wife has anyway as I hate research) about increasing our chances of getting pregnant. So far though nothing yet. The worst is when my wife will start getting strange symptoms that are generally signs of pregnancy. Then we get ourselves all worked up, take a pregnancy test and then, utter disappointment.
We will keep trying though. Hopefully one day soon we will get lucky. In the mean time be sure to check out my wife’s TTC vlog on youtube.
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